Iris carefully made her way up
the attic steps thinking her father might like it if she read 'Camelot' to him.
She hated to think of books collecting dust and turning brittle in the dark.
Maybe they were already too old and frail to handle, but she had to try. They
used to belong to her mother. Hopefully, they would cheer her father up. She
willed herself not to look at anything else. It would only make her upset. No
one seemed ready or willing to offer her more than simple answers to perplexing
questions.
She imagined her mother having
such a deep longing for her father and she looked at him, lying quietly with
his eyes closed.
Deciding to sit with him a while
longer, she picked up the book again. He showed no reaction. She had imagined,
as she so often did when she thought about her mother, that it had been a gift
from her father and at some time her parents sat together reading the
enchanting love story. She thumbed through the pages then opened it from the
back when all at once she saw some hand writing. The ink had faded with time
causing her to peer at the worn scrawling. She read the words in an undertone.
'I once loved the prairie,
crowned by the vast blue sky, full of fleeting clouds. In the spring it is
beautiful and tender. The wildflowers whisper poetry to the wind, playing a
gentle song. In the summer the warm breeze is full of secrets carried across
the land in whispering echoes of those who came before me. All too quickly I
learned how deceiving this place can really be. It begins in the fall, even as
your heart is surging toward the vibrancy around you, and your very being is
caving into the magic weaving its way through the trees. One night a cold gust
of wind sweeps across the great expanse tearing the beautiful tapestry before
it blows away. The wind no longer comes in soft billows. It slowly creeps in
from the north. Like a serpent seeking refuge it slithers across the lonely
floors. It seeps into your skin searching through your soul until it finds just
the right niche where it can chant its tormenting dirge, repeating it over and
over again like a baby crying in the night. It never goes away. You finally
succumb to...'
Iris slammed the book shut, her
mind full of dark, confusing images. She quickly opened the cover and looked
hard at her mother's name. The writing was the same. So much love and yet so
much hate in those few sentences. It was hard for her to grasp such misery when
she herself loved the prairie, no matter what emotion it stirred in her. She
gathered a shaky breath and looked back at her father. Why had she never been
told about her mother's feelings? She paused to consider. It had to be because
her father never knew how her mother felt. He always spoke kindly of her. Never
once had he mentioned her being so sad. Her aunt probably didn't know either,
since she only knew her mother for a short while. Iris held the book against
her chest as she stared at the picture of her mother on the wall. Though the
words saddened her, it brought the past closer making her mother seem all the
more real.