(Woman is around twenty, dressed
in contemporary clothing. She has a deep Irish accent.)
MUSIC: “Lascia
Ch’io Piango” from “Rinaldo” by Handel.
SFX: Rain.
(Music and SFX
up just before curtain. At curtain woman is standing center stage. She is
soaked from the rain. Music and SFX under during the
following.)
WOMAN:
He wraps himself in excess
And money from his eyes
Tears of coins in sadness
It’s a rainy Friday night. I’m
drunk – again. Walking among the sinners lovely homeless.
Men in black hats and terrible coats hiding guns bulging under rough cloth like
mother dangerous-- They don’t tell you none of this comes with instructions--
Water drips from all of me, hair sits flat against the radio. “Hello out there
hello” saying “Men killed -
women” -- black cat bad luck-- He’s beside me, lost again, his one
thought revenge. He is my killer-man soldier-boy gone to war. “We must kill
them before we can be free, before they kill us,” he says in his trembling
replication. Like I am a child that doesn’t understand death.
I imagine how many young men are saying that just now all around the world--
Rain sweeps down onto my face. He can’t tell I am crying-- When he sings he
sounds like birds, or a small god. I wanted him to stay with me and sing, but
he looked at the uniform and smiled, brave deeds written across his face like
boys on fire playing-- The small street we are walking emerges onto the madness
of traffic and swarms of the damned. Most of them adorned and
tricky. I travel with a bag stolen from a past life, still good holding
bottle and great stiff drinks-- I think about tomorrow when I will meet with
someone who wants to change me and can’t understand why I don’t want to be
changed-- Singing now he dances, hoofs flailing in Riverdance
rivulets along the wet street where lifted eyes won’t let him go. That’s when I
love him. Toss it off, toss it all off, run dance sing, all of that shite, play it, pay it away-- Friday night drunks
traveling together, wandering. The rain lets up and steam billows from
steel plates in the road-- Any other night I would be masturbating,
contemplating the constipation of the universe. It seems, at times anyway, the
universe has a hard job letting it go, but when it does great smelly things
emerge fouling the cosmos, great long reeking strings of time and space. We
pass through those strings. That’s what existence is-- We pass a man squatting
next to an alley, holding out his hand. There is nothing in it but streaks of
dirt washed from the creases in his palm. Everyone is too busy to stop and
look, ask a question, offer nothing more than love, put a quid in it, pay
attention, care-- Too guilty maybe, or too too self
consumed, eaten up with wantgreed blasted by the
furnace flames of mother money. The man takes two coins from me and shoves them
into a pocket. He is too wet. He has a newspaper hat. The headline reads
“Homelessness At An All Time Low.” The ink is running
down the side of his face in black streak Indian paint. Across the street two
people run to their BMW. Behind them an
empty store front. Down the street a siren. Through fog neon light like fingers of god in heaven. And we
walk among the sinners lovely homeless, drunk – again. Tomorrow he will go to
war. “Don’t worry,” he says. “Why this war?” I ask.
“It doesn’t have to be this war,” he says, “it could
be any war. The point is we are fighting for freedom.” “Whose
freedom?” I ask. “Ours,” he says. “How do you know?” I ask. He is
annoyed by my questions. “Because they told me. They
said I was doing the right thing.” “What do you think?” I ask. “I don’t know,”
he says. He thinks. He finally says, “I--it’s the right thing.” I am
unconvinced. “Don’t kill for me,” I say. “What? What do you mean don’t kill for
you?” he asks. “If you kill someone,” I say, “don’t do it to save me.” He looks
at me like I am a stranger-- Dogs bark. It’s a rainy Friday night. I want the
rain to wash it all away.