In the Midst of Love and Desires Phase I

If there were someone else in your life, would you tell me?
If I did something wrong and I apologized, would you accept my plea?
If the opportunity presented itself, would you sneak around?
In fact, would you continue to show me love and at the same time bury my heart in the ground?
I ask you these questions because deep in my heart, our relationship is not the same,
I feel like I'm not right for you and that's why you've began to change.
For when you look at me, your eyes don't shine neither do they glow?
And when you talk to me, you act like I'm someone you've never known.
Because when I ask for your hand, all you'll give me is your finger,
And when I ask for your shoulder, all you'll give me is an unbalanced linger.
What's wrong? Am I no longer right for you?
Is your love for me still there, or was it ever true?
Is this the path that all lovers are supposed to travel?
Is my heart supposed to feel like thrown away gravel?
Like its been stepped on and totally ignored,
Like an only child who is always lonely and bored.
So tell me now, is this a waste of my time?
Because I don't like the way you've been treating me
Like I'm the suspect of the most terrible crime.
These things, if I never let you know,
Our relationship will continue to fail and never grow.
So let's work at getting our relationship back to the way it was,
There is no particular reason why...just because.
I love you and I want you to always love me,
That's just the way that lovers are supposed to be.
Two people loving each other indefinitely!

"DECEIVED ONCE AGAIN"

Just the other day
I was heartbroken again,
I was so heartbroken that I thought my heartaches would never end.
I felt like my life had turned upside down,
Like my life had been balled up and thrown to the ground.
How is it that someone can look into your eyes,
And sound so sincere
Then do something so harsh that will cause you to cry?
Once before I made myself a promise that this situation would never happen to me again,
But before I was head over hills in love and the process had already began.
It all started with the sacrificing and believing,
When all the time he was plotting and my heart, he was retrieving.
Yes, he was with me both day and night,
But in my heart I knew that something still wasn’t right.
He constantly told me that he loved me,
And someone other that me in his life would never be.
I knew it was too good to be true,
Because of how he would act and the things that he would do.
This was my husband-to-be, I thought,
Because the lies he told me, I brought.
He had me wrapped around his fingers so tight that I couldn’t breathe,
And I was so blinded by love that I couldn’t figure out that I was being deceived.
This so-called relationship, how could I get out of?
Because it was nothing but deception, not love.
Many days and nights I spent crying,
Because I knew that he had built a foundation of false love, lying.
Wanting badly to take him back,
I knew that I couldn’t because of the dishonesty that was in tact.
Memories, I’ll constantly receive,
But never again will I allow myself to be deceived.