ROADBLOCKS OF MY LIFE

    As I drove down a narrow two lane street, I had to stop. An old light gray Lincoln Continental was stopped horizontally in front of me. I just kept singing. After the first song, I started complaining, “What is she waiting for?” Then I thought, “I’m not being a very good Christian. I should be blessing her, not complaining.” So I prayed something like this: “Heavenly Father, Lord God, I just want to praise Your name. Lord, You know what this Lady needs. I pray that You will bless her with it. Lord bring her to a deeper relationship with You, and if she doesn’t know You, then introduce Yourself. In Jesus’, most holy precious name, I pray, Amen.”

     I started singing with the music again. After the second song, I noticed that the lady was reading her mail. I was really getting aggravated by this time. “Here I am sitting in this truck, smelling this stinky old garbage, and this lady is blocking the road. Why doesn’t she pull up into her driveway, or go into her house? Enough is enough.” I grumbled out-loud.

     I took matters into my own hands. I was tired of sitting there wasting my time, smelling the garbage. I drove around that old car, right up into the yard across the street. I was so relieved that I was on my way. Within a few minutes, I reached the drop off destination. I gave the Christmas cards to my Christian brother, and I was on my way to get rid of that nasty garbage.

     I turned onto a busy two-lane highway. Traffic was very heavy, but it was moving. A train was traveling parallel to me in the same direction I was heading. The lady in the blue car in front of me decided that she was going to turn. But instead of pulling all the way into the turn lane that led over the tracks, she stopped and blocked the lane that I was traveling in. “What’s going on?” I thought. “Why doesn’t that car pull up further and stop blocking the road?” I was getting frustrated with people blocking the road. There was no way I could go around this car without hitting another car head on. “Lord,” I said, “Please make that car pull up so I can get rid of this garbage.” Finally, the lady pulled up, and I was able to continue on my way. I started singing again with the music.

     As I was driving the Lord spoke to me saying, “These roadblocks are like your life. The things you can handle, you take into your own hands. However, when you can’t come up with a solution, you call on Me. You lost an opportunity to witness and to show My love to the lady in the car that blocked the road. You became impatient. You tried to bless her, but your heart wasn’t in it. You could have introduced Me to her, but instead you asked Me to introduce Myself and drove around her into someone’s yard. You didn’t seek me in the matter. The car turning to cross over the railroad tracks represents when you call on Me as a last resort. You are your greatest roadblock in life. You need to seek Me first in all things, not just the things you have no solution for.”

     I felt so ashamed. “Jesus, I’m sorry. Help me seek You first in all things. I want to change. I want to truly repent.” I cried.

     The Lord started showing me different roadblocks throughout my life that had strongholds on me, and He encouraged me to write them down. This is the reason for this book. I must confess that I let this book become a roadblock. I kept contending with the Lord about writing it because I was afraid of what people would say about it. I define a roadblock as anything that keeps me from doing or becoming who God wants me to be. However, the Lord has strongly impressed on me that “He will never embarrass me or hurt me. There is healing and deliverance for me in writing this book, and healing and deliverance for anyone who reads it.” I pray that only the Lord’s words will flow through this book, and there will be no more roadblocks in my life or anyone else’s.