Meg's Absolutely Wonderful Tremendous Fantastic Day/THE DEAFENING SILENCE

Marilyn Monroe.

My spiritual progress took a huge boost when I joined a spiritual meditation learning circle led by a lady called Jeanette Hodgson, her wealth of experience filtered through to us over time, she is one of just two people to lead a circle that I have been involved with who could actually see our meditations herself, the sign of a natural spiritually gifted teacher.

Before the start of each circle we would normally have a chat about things that popped up in conversation. One particular week we were talking about healing and then children came into the subject, how they can be a joy to work on. And then the subject of doing healing for terminal children came up, and Jeanette told us all a story of how she used to go and do healing for a little boy on a children’s cancer ward.

Jeanette was sat with the little boy in the children’s cancer ward, she had finished doing the healing for that session and they were just talking. The little boy said, “Jeanette do you see that little boy over there” “yes” said Jeanette “he’s very poorly and his mummy and daddy are unhappy,” “oh dear that’s sad” said Jeanette,“ I don’t think he will go home from here with his mummy and daddy, and do you see that little girl over there Jeanette,” “yes I can see her” said Jeanette, “I don’t think she will go home from here either, and do you know what Jeanette, I think that I will not be going home from here either”

It was an emotional story and those last few words just brought the lump into my throat in an instant, I nearly started crying the reaction was so fast, but the story brought home the reality of terminal conditions in children that I would eventually face if I continued being a healer.

We started the evenings meditation and I was still a little bothered as I saw nothing positive about the situation of terminal children that I could get a grip of in anyway at all.

As I relaxed into the meditation I asked my spirit guides/god “what was I going to do when I was confronted with a terminally ill child situation similar to the story Jeanette had just told us?” Instantly the spirit of Marilyn Monroe appeared in my meditation for just a few seconds, and I was given a full explanation crammed into a split second.

As you read this or if I was telling you the story to your face, as soon as I said the words Marilyn Monroe you will have got a picture of Marilyn in your mind, I will almost guarantee that it was one that shows her at her best. Youthful, beautiful, and smiling or laughing, Marilyn Monroe never reached the stage in her life where we all saw her other than radiating beauty.

When you think of a child that has died you will always remember them at their best, they will never grow old in your memories, the same as Marilyn Monroe, twenty or thirty even forty years and the memories will still be the beautiful ones of the child. It will not bring a child back, as nobody can come back as they were, but for me it somehow eased the emotions that story brought to the surface.

Another experience through knowing Jeanette. I was invited by Jeanette to go and help her do healing on a lady in Christie’s cancer hospital in Manchester, she had an extremely aggressive form of cancer in the lymph glands and her doctors realistically did not offer her the prospect of living beyond a few months after treatment.

The first time I went Jeanette and I sat at either side of the bed and held her hand giving her healing as she listened and relaxed with some music that I had put together. The ward had about 24 women in it and for most of the time we were there one lady who was sat on her bed was just shouting “I want a nurse! and I need a nurse!” on and on not thinking about where she was or caring for others.

As I was doing healing for the lady we were there to see, I was in my own mind quite critical of the lady constantly shouting, and then all of a sudden my spirit guides/god were with me and they explained that the lady who was selfishly demanding a nurse was ’Afraid.’ And as I continued with the healing they explained that many of the women in the ward were scared, and they were dealing or failing to deal with it in their own individual way! Some successful and some not so successful, as this lady shouting showed!

I then realised who am I to criticise that lady for being the way she was, and who she was, because I do not know what made her that way and I do not know how I would cope if I found myself facing possible death by cancer.

I also learnt another extremely important lesson on that first visit. As we left the ward passing through it I felt fine, and then as I stepped immediately under the last door frame that took me out of the ward into the main hospital corridor my head exploded in pain! I had been protected by my spirit guides/god from all the negative energy’s and fear in the ward and now I had left it they released what they had protected me from to show me its incapacitating and destructive power. I should have spiritually protected myself before going in, after this experience I made sure I did so after that visit. (it makes you think about the people who work in these area’s of fear and pain constantly and how they are being protected, and how they must/should maintain a barrier against the negative energy’s in their own individual way’s for their own well being.)

As I have said previously in the book “An experience of something is worth more than 10,000 words on the subject” and this lesson revolving around the negativity that fear can create was worth the temporary pain!

I only went two more times and the lady with cancer went home as her course of treatment had finished, I heard from Jeanette that she lived for 18 more months and in that time she married the man she had lived with for 14 years in the Seychelles, and that the cancer returned and took her.

She unburdened herself of a worry she had while we visited her that said volumes about life and how it can be! She had worked in accounts in a small firm for years and was an essential part of the company, and her boss was constantly putting pressure on her by asking her how long she would be off work, and she had actually the week before her treatment had for a few days gone back to work to clear a backlog that had built up during her illness/cancer.

She was worried she might lose her job or that the absence’s through the illness/cancer may cause her future problems at work and this was extremely stressful for her, she told us that her bosses had actually been a bit distant and not as friendly as normal for even those few days she had gone back to help them out with the backlog situation.

It is all so similar to the story in the book where I relate how my spirit guides/god told me about all the lives ruined by managers and bosses being ruthless and discarding workers below them emotionally damaged by 9/11 in the financial business’s of New York!