A Life Sentence
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Understand me --- That is if I seem hostile and defending it is because every facet of my world is a threat to the soft mellow things I keep inside me. How do you say it? How do you spit out on paper what you want to have known to a special someone beyond the fence? Never can little words obscure little marks on a piece of paper, tell of the loneliness, doubts, bitterness and frustrations that are constant companions of everyone in this world away from the free world. No one can ever know, no one who has never been a blue clad, numbered - nothing. I can't begin to tell them , but I can try. I can try because when this human meat grinder spits me back out into the free world. I'm going to be different from all the rest of the American John Doe's who have been to hell and all I want is someone to understand me, understand that if I feel hostile and defensive it is because every facet of this world is a threat to the soft sweet things I keep inside me. I cannot trot out gentleness because nothing in prison is gentle, I cannot show kindness, because in my world kindness is a weakness, and weakness in prison is a slow agonizing torture. I dare not exhabit love, because the wolves of my world would tear me to shreds I cannot bring forth and demonstrate my loneliness or hungers, because they have become a bone deep ache that even I cannot reach and soothe. . . . .
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About the Book
Venture if you will into the thoughts of An Inmate who has spent over 20 years of his life behind bars. Three of them on Death Row. Hear for yourself his emotions , what he deals with in his day to day lifestyle. Hear what its like to sit hour after hour behind bars not knowing what the next moment holds. Experiece the loneliness and frustrations of everyday prison life where death and torment and games are a way of life. You either fit in or you don't. Try and imagine yourself in a world where the free world is no longer available to you. Your days are filled with long endless moments and your nights are sleepless due to fear and screams down the hall. you are no longer a person but a number in a system that is filled with rules and regulation. No lee-way available, every rule is followed to the hilt. Once your in, your in, until your time is done freedom is the thing of the past.
About the Author
Kenneth Gardner was born and raised in New York Where he took to the street life at the age of 14, he has been incarcerated for 24 years. Three of these years were served on Death Row, where he began writing . He has always enjoyed reading. Never Got his high school diaploma but got his GED in prison. This book will serve its purpose if it changes the direction of one life and leads them to a better path.