ON SUNDAYS CHRISTINE'S HOUSE WAS THE PLACE TO BE. THE GRANDMOTHER COOKED UP A STORM. FOOD ALL OVER THE PLACE. EVERYONE FROM THE PREACHER TO COUSINS AND NEIGHBORS WOULD COME TO EAT. CHRISTINE WAS FIVE YEARS OLD WHEN SHE DEVLOPED FEAR IN HER HEART FOR THE FIRST TIME. ONE DAY WHILE EVERONE WAS OUT SIDE SHE CAME IN TO USE THE BATHROOM. HER COUSIN, HAL WAS HIS NAME, WAS IN THE ROOM ACROSS THE HALL.
HE CALLED FOR HER TO COME HERE. SHE CAME, HE ASK HER WHAT WAS SHE DOING, SHE REPLYED, GOING TO THE BATHROOM. THE NEXT THING SHE REMEMBERED IS HE PICK HER UP AND THREW HER ON THE BED, REMOVING HER PANTIES. SHE TRIED TO SCREAM, HE PLACED HIS HAND OVER HER MOUTH. WITH HIS BODY PRESSED UP AGAINST HER LITTLE BODY HE INSERTED HIS PENIS BETWEEN HER LEGS.
SHE FELT THE WORST PAIN ENTERING HER LITTLE BODY, SHE FELT THE TEARING OF HER PRIVATE PART WITH EVERY STROKE OF HIS BODY MOVING UP AND DOWN ON HER, SHE CRIED, WITH HER BOTTOM THOBBING IN PAIN AND WAS THINKNING, OH NO, I'M GOING TO GET BEAT WITH THE CORD IF I TELL. AS HE LIFTED HIS BODY OFF OF HERS HE LOOKED AT HER AND SAID, YOU BETTER NOT SAY ANYTHING, NOT ONE WORD. IT WAS SO HARD FOR HER TO WALK, SHE WAS BLEEDING. SHE STUFFED TOILET PAPER UP INTO HER VAGINA, AND THREW HER PANTIES IN THE TRASH. SHE FELT SO UGLY, SO ASHAMED, WHAT HAPPEN TO THAT LITTLE GIRL. INNOCENCE GONE.
CHRISTINE'S GRANDMOTHER WAS A GOOD WOMAN. SHE JUST TRIED TO RAISE THE CHILDREN TO KNOW THE BIBLE AND STAY IN A CHILDS PLACE. WHEN YOU GOT OUT OF A CHILD'S PLACE, SHE WOULD REMIND YOU THAT YOU ARE A CHILD. CHRISTINE CAN REMEMBER HER SISTER ANNIE WOULD GET HIT FOR EVERYTHING. WHEN ANYTHING GOT BROKEN OR SOMETHING WENT WRONG, ANNIE WOULD BE BLAMED. SHE COULD REMEMBER THE WELPS ON THEIR BACKS LASTING FOR WEEKS. CHRISTINE STOPPED TALKING AND BEGAN TO SHUT DOWN. HER GRANDMOTHER RARELY HIT HER AND SHE BEGIN TO THINK,
STAYING QUIET WILL SAVE YOU FROM A WHIPPIN. SO SHE SHUT DOWN. SHE BECAME QUIT AND SHY. SHE SMILED A LOT BUT BEHIND THAT SMILE WAS FEAR. TONI, ON THE OTHER HAND WAS LOUD AND WAS ALWAYS READY TO FIGHT. SHE NEVER CRIED WHEN SHE GOT HIT WHICH WAS RARE. I ASKED HER WHY SHE NEVER CRIED. SHE REPLIED, I GOT USE TO IT. TONI WAS YOUNGER THAN CHRISTINE, BUT CHRISTINE LOOKED UP TO HER. TONI DIDN'T MIND HAVING SEX WITH HAL, SHE SAID SHE WAS USE TO THAT TOO.
WE HAD ONE COUSIN THAT HAD EIGHT CHILDREN, THEY CALLED HER RUBBER BECAUSE SHE WAS SO SMALL AND WOULD ALWAYS BOUNCE BACK FROM A HARD TIME, SHE ALWAYS USE TO SMILE THROUGH THE GOOD AND BAD. RUBBER WAS MARRIED TO A MAN THAT BEAT HER A LOT AND HAD MANY AFAIRS DURING THEIR MARRAGE. SHE DIED AT A YOUNG AGE OF TWENTY-FOUR FROM BREAST CANCER, THE STRANGEST THING WAS THAT ON HER DYING BED SHE HAD NOT DIED YET, AND HER HUSBAND CALLED AN HOUR BEFORE SHE DIED AND TOLD RUBBER'S MOTHER, I'M SORRY ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER.
WHEN RUBBER'S MOTHER WENT TO HER ROOM, RUBBER'S EYES WAS FIXED TO HER MOTHER'S EYES AS IF SHE WANTED TO TELL HER SOMETHING, SHE COULD NOT GET IT OUT, BLOOD CAME FROM HER MOUTH AND SHE TOOK HER LAST BREATH AND DIED. IT WAS BELIEVED THAT HE USED VOODOO TO TAKE HER LIFE. WHERE EVER THERE IS GOOD THERE IS EVIL, BUT IT COULDN'T BE PROVEN. CHRISTINE HAD FELT A WHITE SHADOW THAT NIGHT WHEN RUBBER DIED, THEY TOLD HER SHE WAS DREAMING, CHRISTINE KNEW IT WASN'T A DREAM. RUBBER'S CHILDREN LIVED WITH THEIR FATHER AND WAS NEVER TOLD OF HOW WONDERFUL THEIR REAL MOTHER WAS. THE YOUNGER CHILDREN NEVER NEW OF HER AT ALL TIL THEY GOT GROWN.